Gambling addiction

 Day 1 2/8/2022 I am a compulsive gambler, I have loss roughly 30K throughout my whole life, I am currently age 31, and still have a little saving for myself, around 20K. I gamble at a very young age, around 16 or 17, because during our family gathering we will always play pokers or blackjacks. That's how I learn about gambling. But the bet size is usually $2 to $4. The real KICK gets in when I started working, I earn quite a decent amount, able to feed myself. At age 30, I was introduce to online casino, and I started to gamble, I start off with 100, slowly it become 1000, then 10000. I do have some up and down, I think that's what keep me going. There was once I loss 15K in a single night, and I told myself that I wanted to earn the money back slowly, I kept playing for months and truly I earn back what's loss and some, roughly 21K. That's the worse thing it could ever happen to me. At this point I would have rather lose the 15K and stop there. Is really not about the...